Tyler Durden

"All the ways you wish you could be, that's me.

I look like you wanna look, I fuck like you wanna fuck.

I am smart, capable, and most importantly...I am free in all the ways that you are not."

This is new.

I feel so free.


Nothing can take this away.


And season starts so soon. I am SO pumped. WOOOOOOOOO!!! :)

Now I know.

I realize now that I'm not the one that you think of when you lie your head down to sleep.

I'm not the one you dream of while you're sleeping.

I'm not the one that occupies your thoughts day in and day out.

I'm not the one you want.

I'm just not the one.

Don't trust me.

"Black dress with the tights underneath, I got the breath of the last cigarette on my teeth.

Tongue's always pressed to your cheeks, while my tongue is on the inside of some other girls teeth. Tell your boyfriend if he says hes got beef that I'm a vegetarian.

X's on the back of your hands, wash them in the bathroom to drink like the bands. Bruises cover your arms, shaking in the fingers with the bottle in your palm. The best is, no one knows who you are. Just another girl alone at the bar.

She wants to touch me. She wants to love me. She'll never leave me.

Shush girl, shut your lips. Do the Hellen Keller and talk with your hips."

I'm in an interesting mood tonight. And that last line is killer, it gets me every time.

Beep beep

Sometimes I feel like the biggest fuckface on the planet.


Then I realize that I'm not doing anything wrong.


Thank God break is here.

Let me kiss you on your hot spot

A.Garv is back in the game, bitches.


WATCH OUT! :-D

Do or die.

Tonight decides everything.

If everything goes well/repeat of Fri. night...sweeeeeeeeet that would be awesome. :)

If not, shit. That blows. :(

It's just not fair

Right when I think I'm back on my feet again, ready to be done with this...you knock me right back down again. And I fall to the same exact spot where you've had me for far too long.


I'm taking steps in the right direction (and I have the, um, "marks" to prove it). But really, I get tangled up in some interesting things. Another one with an attachment elsewhere? Just my luck.


Ugh, sometimes I just need an escape. Hence why I do some of the things that I do. When my brain is emptied of all the issues and then filled with smoke, everything in this life seems so frivolous.


I want simplicity. I want relaxation.
I. want. freedom.

Figures

The day of my party I feel like shit/get sick.


I have no motivation whatsoever to clean my room. But I know I have to. This night will be epic.

...

And then there's the nights where everything is like a dream and I can't even feel my feet touching the ground.

Let's do hoodrat shit

3 hours of Apples to Apples, "Would you rather...", Kill/Fuck/Marry.


Vandalism. Hoodrat business.


Then, I was most definitely soaring in another galaxy. I was semi-bugging but talking to Amy helped me chill.


Final word: As of February 1, 2009...I quit. This is promise.

Success

This whole night was a success.


rugby formall was fantastic. baseball holiday was a great time.


i love girls. the end.

"I'm not sleeping! I'm just asian 'cause I'm high!"

First, Sake shots at City Style, courtesy of our sexy bartender who chased us down the street and forced (not much force needed) us to participate in a free round ;-)


Second, a fantastical ride on a T-Cat that brought back memories of a yester year.


Lastly, 2 tightly packed bowls and a Chewy bar feeding friendzy while watching Harold and Kumar (how appropriate)...


Sometimes you just gotta say "fuck it" and celebrate friendship. These are some of the best days of my life, and I have the best friends I could ask for. I wouldn't trade my life for the world.

Cock-a-doodle-do

I feel myself getting shy. I feel like I'm chickening out.




Speaking of which, I'm making delicious chicken for dinner. Yum! Can't wait.

The truth is...

This is going to be one of the hardest things that I will ever have to do in my life.

I am not looking forward to it. But, somehow, it seems necessary.

I'm putting everything out there.

I feel like if I put off doing it, it won't happen. But I know that isn't true. Tomorrow I will sit down and let everything flow. Whatever comes out will permanently stain the paper and will not be erasable.

Then, whatever comes out onto this paper, I will have to share it. I'm not going to withold anything that is on that paper. I am going to recite every line.

I don't know what will become of this. I've thought a very long time about it. One thing I do know...it will hurt. You bet it will.